Nani's thoughts^_^

Boy is tomorrow going to be the saddest day of my life..

not only will i loose my first love but he doesnt even know what he still means to me..

yeah maybe the love went away and what was left was nothing but mere lust..but over it all there was something there and it was great..

i just hope he understands that he will always be something special to me..

i mean how couldnt he..he was my first love?

ugh i hate this i hate time but what i must do is enjoy the time i have and make the best of it..dammit i love you twinkie of mines..my past..but my first love..ill miss you..have a great time with your life and just be happy..

cause when i close my eyes its you who i see..

because when i feel someone around me i  remember you!

when im about to sleep its you who i thank god i met!

your my universe and sad thing is you dont even know it(;

whats this sting i get in the back of my eyes everytime i see your pictures?
whats this ache i get in my heart when i let my mind remember?
why is it that even when i tried not to let you in the hurt is still the same?
id like to know if things somehow would have worked out since i miss you.
i try not to think of you and yet iam here typing away of these strange feelings.
its strange because we used eachother to get away from someone elses caused pain?
and yet i dont know abotu you but here iam missing and remembering every moment.
well either way i lilke to think your happy and wel you deserve what your getting.
i hope that maybe our paths can one day be reunited and well live in eachothers arms and kisses.

I just hate the fact that my sunset tells me one thing but then turn his back to me..

then there goes all the true feelings that could possibly come back..why is it that everytime you come back to my life you always end up imacting it so hard that all i ever wanna do is go and hold you so dearly.

Well im done and tired of this never ending game. you dont love me as you say you just want to feel loved. and you know ill always give that to you..well not aymore..im done and tired and i believe if i walk away now it will be forever. i wont let you in anymore. So go find yourself someone cause i nani wont love you anymore. i wont be there for you when you need a shoulder.

The way i view the world is like a sunset..always beautiful even when its going through its hard times….theres always something to love and keep ahold..